The Imprints Of My Thoughts

I need a second blog! :P

2011-04-11T23:33:00.001+05:30

OK. I NEED to have an anonymous blog. Like seriously. There so much that I want to write but can't as I know the people I interact with daily, would be reading it. And I obviously don't want them to know about it. Hence, the problem. :P

But one the other hand, I want to become a good, renowned blogger. For that I need to blog regularly. But I need to blog under a pseudo-name. I can always have that but then the address of my blog defeats the entire purpose. So I desperately need to shift. :-|

I had switched to twitter for tweeting regular updates. But with Twitter not being private any more, that's not going to work from now on. :-/

Well, I am not starting a second blog in the next 3 weeks. So this thought can rest a bit. I have my end-semester examinations in 2 weeks. And I know I should be studying for this and not writing this post. But it had been a long time since I actually blogged. The feeling of writing about all the stuff happening had gone. But today all of a sudden, I suddenly felt like blogging and hence the post. :P

And yeah, today's my mom's birthday. So, Happy Birthday Mom. :D

Grandma, this one's for you!

2011-03-22T23:07:00.001+05:30

Looking at the water below,

I saw myself staring at me.

I couldn’t believe what had happened.

Was this actually meant to be?

The feeling had still not sunk in.

I was still finding it difficult to come to terms with reality.

The fact that she was no more,

Was true in actuality.

It was just a few hours back,

That I had talked to her.

Her last words to me,

Still in my mind do occur.

Now that I know I can’t,

There is so much to say.

How much I wish,

That you could live another day.

I will always deeply miss and fondly remember you.

Grandma, I hope you knew,

That you are in my heart etched.

And that I used to, still and will always love you.

This was due to be to posted in Indian Fusion. But then as this was personal, I decided to have it on my blog too. :)
Since I would be sharing the Indian Fusion link. Why not share this too!? :P

This one's for my bro!

2011-03-22T18:40:00.000+05:30

Kapil Kalra, I know you won't be reading this. (I seriously hope you aren't! :P) But this one's for you. <3

I am SO SO SO proud you today and you know why.

Keep it up, bro! :)

Love,

Karan

Just for the sake of it

2011-02-13T01:30:00.001+05:30

I know I haven't posted since ages. And this post is just being made to break that record.

There was so much to write. But now I feel all that stuff is irrelevant. One because I am so late. My thoughts and perceptions have changed. Secondly because my blog is not private. I know you would be reading it. And I obviously don't want you to know about it.(I know you are reading this too. So please get the message. :P)

All I can say is that a lot of stuff is going on. Some big decisions have been taken. Some are still pending and would be taken in the subsequent days. I will write about them in the coming posts.

Life is weird and so am I. Enormous mood swings had engulfed me in the previous week. But now, I am hopefully back to normal.

I have definitely been suffering from the 'Writer's Block'. I just can't sit down and write something. Around 5-6 poems had been started but are yet to be completed. It's like my mind has suddenly stopped vomiting ideas.

And lastly, Udaan's music rocks. The lyrics are so true, touching and thought provoking!

Ik udaan kab talak yun kaid rahegi
Roko na chod do isse
Ik udaan hi sapno ko zindagi degi
Sapno se jod do isse

Kahani khatam hai ya shuruwaat hone ke hai
Subha nayi hai yeh ya phir raat hone ko hai

The Ups and Downs

2011-01-22T17:56:00.002+05:30

The past 2 weeks have been quite Topsy-turvy for me. Enormous mood swings had engulfed me for apparently no reason at all. The highs and lows were quite significant and evident. :/
But now it is thankfully over and I have hopefully emerged out as a stronger person. You can't be affect by smaller things. There are much bigger issues to worry about. :)

I will only mention about the 'highs' here. Not the 'lows'!
I have written 2 articles for a online magazine called "Indian Fusion".
Indian Fusion
A friend of mine told about the articles the she had been writing for it. I contacted its owners and was selected to write an article for it, much to surprise! :)

There was an article that I came across in the Times Of India, Mumbai edition dated July 20th 2010 titled 'I was programmed to be a genius'. Now I wasn't in Delhi at that time. So I don't know whether this was also published in Delhi edition or not. But nevertheless, I have posted a link of the same. So you all can also have a look at it.
I was programmed to be a genius
This was the inspiration behind my first article titled 'Eugenics'. I had a draft on this topic for a long time but I just wasn't getting the time to sit down and research for it. But this magazine played the perfect reason for the delay! :P
Eugenics
It got 49 facebook likes + 9.5 rating out of 10 from 6 votes. I am simply honoured! :D

There were 2 videos which were quite helpful when I felt low. I somehow felt inspired and motivated after every watch.
The 1st is the trailer of the movie "127 hours" starring James Franco (He has played Harry Osborn in the Spiderman movies) and directed by Danny Boyle (Of Slumdog Millionaire fame).
127 Hours - Official Movie Trailer
The 2nd is the video of Steve Jobs titled "How to live before you die".
Steve Jobs : How to live before you die
This was the inspiration behind the 2nd article.

As this blog post was in the reckoning for 3-4 days, by that time my 2nd article had also been published. It came out 2 days back.

Have you found your 'thing'?

I am really embarrassed by the typos in it. I was feeling really sleepy at the time I was writing this article. Hence the errors. :/

This one too got has 41 likes up till now. And a rating of 9.5 again from 2 votes! Amazing! :D

I surely could have have got more if it had not been for the typos! :P

Now, this explains to an extent why I couldn't blog for the past 2 weeks.

Don't worry blog! I always have, still and would always love you more! :)

"Don't give up Aron! Do not give up!"

"Stay hungry, stay foolish!"

The Deviation

2011-01-07T22:31:00.000+05:30

The actual reason why I started a blog was that I had this constant urge in me to write about anything and everything. I felt the need to express my feelings, write about my experiences, give my opinions on random stuff. And somewhere down the line, I had probably deviated from that. I was more interested in getting more hits to my blog because of which I used to keep on checking my stats frequently. All of this was getting kind of irritating and it had to stop. :|

I sat down and started to remember the exact reason. I remembered the urge in me to write. I still had that urge. But it had somehow got suppressed under the desire to popularize the blog. :/

So finally after a lot of thinking, I have decided that I am no longer going to share my blog posts. Those who are really interested in reading my posts can always type in my Url and visit the blog! :)

The Cries

2011-01-03T22:52:00.002+05:30

Another poem. And I am not bragging but this one has been written in 45 minutes only! :)

The Cries

Lying down on my bed,
I stared up at the ceiling.
I imagined myself to be dead,
And shuddered at the feeling.

I closed my eyes,
And tried to dream.
But my head was full of a baby's cries,
And his mother's scream.

Time flew by,
But I couldn't sleep.
I couldn't get rid of the cry,
As I was engulfed by a thought deep.

I was witness to a horrifying crash,
which I can never forget.
The opposite car's driver was driving rash.
My ears exploded with the sound when the two cars met.

It was then when I heard the baby's cry.
A soul was alive.
His mother screamed when she wondered why,
People were taking time to arrive.

With two voices I heard,
I thanked God for showing some mercy.
Without uttering a word,
I ran to the place in a hurry.

Blood was strewn all over the place.
I could barely see.
The opposite car driver's beyond recognition face,
almost made me flee.

Alongwith others help, I saved the baby and his mother.
They both are now out of danger,
And have been reunited with the baby's father.
But the same couldn't be said for the other stranger.

I still can't forget the face,
And the scream.
Both were saved by God's grace.
How much I wished all this to be a dream!

Some points that didn't deserve to be blog posts!

2011-01-02T22:07:00.001+05:30

Random thoughts that weren't big enough to be converted into blog posts! :P

1. Happy New Year everyone! MMXI please be better! :D

2. College starts tomorrow! Looking forward to it. 2nd semester awaits us! Dreading, Excited, Anxious, Nervous! Yes. All of them together! :)

3. It is SO bloody cold! I had to turn on the heater for comfort! Dear GOD, lower down the chill please! :/

4. Shopping was done yesterday too! And it is almost over! :P
Went with mom, dad and bro. Can't remember the last time we went out together! Dinner was eaten outside too! :D

5. Pocket Money for the month received. However there was no raise as promised. But I am happy that I am no more broke! :)

6. KFC's Black Mojito sucks! It is pepsi only along with crushed lemon and some leaves! Damn! Didn't know that earlier. :|
Whipped Cookies, Irish Coffee and Choco Lash are awesome! :D

7. My brother's holidays have started. And they will go on till 10th. That means 1 full week I will be seeing him sleep when I will be getting ready for college! :|
But it's ok. It is his turn now. Mine lasted a month. His would last a week! :D

8. Shah Rukh Khan's look in Ra.One seems interesting! Blue eyes! Hoping that the movie turns out to be good too! :)

9. I really don't know why it pinches when you have to withdraw money from your ATM when someone else needs it and you very well know that you will get that money back within a matter of hours. Even if that someone else happens to be your cousin brother! :P

10. 5D movie! Yes. I watched it West Gate Mall, Rajouri Garden. I had seen a 4D movie around 6 months back when I was in Mumbai. And frankly speaking, I couldn't find the extra 'D'. Apart from the starting when there was a peculiar smell, I couldn't smell anything. I had a blocked nose. That could be a reason. :/
And I am just hoping that somebody's fart wasn't the reason for that initial smell! :P

11. Driving sucks! Yes it does! There is so much to remember. :|
Driving classes finally over. Went out on the roads for the first time today with dad. And I did drive fairly well excluding the initial hiccups ! :)
Practice is to be done daily at 6 a.m. Getting up so early is going to be one hell of a nightmare! :(
I have set myself the deadline of 1st March to drive to college in my car. Hoping to meet it! :/

12. Jogging has to be started. Gained a bit of weight this last month and it seems to be showing. With Driving to be done at 6 in the morning, now should I get up at 5 a.m. for jogging? :|

13. Talking to a studious medical student in his 3rd year in MBBS is SO fun! :D
Excerpts from the conversation:
"Tum logon ne voh JAVA cheez padhi hai? Voh jo Sony Ericsson ke phones mein hoti hai!" "And voh kya hota hai, C triple plus ya C double plus? Voh bhi kara hai kya tumne?"
And you can't even imagine how I controlled my laughter there! :D

I had some other points in mind too. But why do I forget everything when I sit to down to writing!? Damn! :|
A later post then maybe.

Just A Friend

2011-01-02T02:08:00.002+05:30

My friend is back again with her poem! I casually told her to write a poem around an hour back and she came up with this! In just 30 mins! Unbelievable! It completely pawns all my poems! Hats off to her! :)

Just A Friend

I thought I had become emotionless
But I guess I was clueless
That one day you will come into my life
My brain & heart would get into a strife

My brain would stop me talking to you
calling you, liking you, feeling for you
Don't you remember what happened in the past?
How can you forget so fast?

My heart would have nothing to answer
It had to stop getting closer,
more emotionally attached to you,
liking you, feeling for you.

I told you I can only be a friend
And that is how it will have to end
You said friendship is all am thinking about
& I have nothing to worry about

But it was already too late
It hadn't taken a while to complicate
I knew where our late night chats were going
But couldn't control what I was doing

And then came the moment I feared
My heart was seared
You said "I seriously like you"
And I didn't have anything to tell you.

I tried simplifying the things
Trying to prove false your feelings
It's just infatuation I said
You will have to move ahead

But life has never been easy
Things are pretty sleazy
Followed an emotional scene
Spurt of tears was seen

It all ended
Hearts were mended
I did loose a great friend
You came back as 'just a friend'

Really touching, isn't it?

2010 ends

2010-12-31T23:58:00.001+05:30

Reflecting back on the past year, many things were going through my head. Where was I an year ago and where am I now! Things have changed a lot. I have probably changed a bit too. Whether the change has been good or bad, I really don't know.

Things that happened almost around an year ago are still pretty vividly embedded in my mind. I have no doubt at all in saying that the period around this date last year has been the most dreading time of my life up till now. I still have goosebumps when I unconsciously am reminded of it.

I have surely come a long way. And sometimes it is hard to believe as SO much has happened in the past year. It is difficult to digest the fact that where I was and where have I have reached now! Life goes on. It had it highs and lows. It began on a low note, scooped to an all time low and ends on average note. But I am happy. It could have been much worse. :)

New Year is being spent sipping a big mug of coffee, writing this blog post and watching a movie. At home. Alone in my room. All by myself! :/
Not at all the kind of New Year that I had imagined. But I am doing the best I can make out of it by doing things that I love doing! :)
But never mind. The whole December compensates for today! I would always remember December 2010. Never ever have I enjoyed SO much! :)

At first I wanted to brand 2010 as a bad year because of the obvious reasons. But then I read Medha's status. I will quote it here.
"
Dear 2010,
You have been an eventful year. Calling u good, or for that matter, bad,wud b seriously unfair. You have seen me grow like never before. You hav been witness to a lot that's important to me, probably one of the most significant years of my life. So just as you are about to bid farewell forever, I'd like you to know that you'...ll always be fondly remembered.Ciao!
Yours,
Medha

PS: 2011, I already love you!
"
This obviously sent me thinking. I smiled after reading it and realized she was pretty right. 2010 had definitely made me witness a lot important things which I would remember all my life. I had many ups and downs. And I have surely grown a lot as a person this year. So yes, 2010 would be deeply remembered, not fondly though!

Signing off 2010 and welcoming 2011!
2011, please be better! Will you?

Sick Health + TV shows + Boredom Trips

2010-12-29T22:52:00.000+05:30

It's official now! I have an extremely weak immune system. After falling ill for the 2nd time in 10 days and without being fully cured even the 1st time, I had to sadly accept this fact! :/
As far as I believe, it is the sole reason why I haven't been doing anything constructive in these vacations. It supposedly killed all the momentum that I had. :/

How I Met Your Mother's latest episode 'False Positive' was great! At last, there was a really good episode where the story progressing a bit! :)
It's really difficult to wait for one complete week for the next episode and then end up disappointed when it is not upto the mark. But thankfully, this time it was awesome! :D
But I have heard the next one is to be broadcasted on 8th January! God save me till then! :/

I switched over to Scrubs and The Big Bang Theory since I am at par with HIMYM's latest episode. Season 1 of both the shows has been finished! But I really don't know why I haven't found them as good as HIMYM. :/

Driving Classes started! :D
I made good progress in initial 2-3 days. But I haven't made any considerable, in the last few. Only 7 classes are left and I am still stuck on 2nd gear. Damn. :|
But that was 5 classes back. I have progressed to 3rd gear and crossed 40 km/hr! :D

Boredom Trips! Yes! I have been rarely staying at home! 9 continuous days without a break! :D

Day 1: Connaught Place in the evening with Sanchit. Bored at home. It had been 3 days since I had been staying at home. All due to my sick health! :|
Day 2: South-Ex market and Ansal Plaza with Sanchit again. Because we hadn't visited that area of Delhi. And because we were fed up of going to District Centre, Rajouri Garden and Connaught Place. Turns out that we really didn't like that place. So, no recommendations! :/
Day 3: Manesar + Gurgaon with college friends. 2 of them had their birthdays earlier. So we were treated at Haldirams and BluO! :D
Day 4: Sunday. At home till afternoon. Evening spent with cousin playing pool and night-stay at my Nani's place.
Day 5: Nehru Place with Apoorv for Laptop repair. Making it his 4th visit there in a month! We accidentally saw Lotus Temple and visited it only to find out that it is closed on Monday! Such bad luck! :|
Day 6: Driving Learner's License + PAN Card. Both done it 1 day! :)
Day 7: I wanted to complete 1 week! So college for pool! :P
Day 8: Shopping with my cousin at Rajouri Garden.
Day 9: Tees Maar Khan with Sanchit at PVR Vikaspuri making it my 5th movie in the holidays! The other 4 being Break Ke Baad, HP 7, No Problem and Band Baaja Baarat! :D

This post had been in the reckoning for around a week. But my stupid internet was playing the spoilsport!

My Oldest Friend

2010-12-23T12:29:00.004+05:30

This one's for you Medha! I hope you like it! :)
And sorry for the title. I couldn't think of a better one. :P

My Oldest Friend

I told a friend of mine that I had a lot time to spare.

So she challenged me and gave me a dare.
I was asked to write a poem about her.

That it was going to be so tough never to me did it occur!

She is my oldest friend.

We have come a long way together.

10 years did separate us.

But now we are back again after the hiatus.

She never fails to show for me her care.

I always compliment on her beautiful long hair.

Pulling my leg is her favourite hobby.

The Harry Potter character she likes the most is Dobby!

Her G.K. is quite awesome.

Whenever we meet, her face lits up like the way flowers blossom!

She talks more than her age.

I hope that one day she becomes a sage!

She is a bit of a feminist.

And has a never ending to-do list!
You should never with her disagree.
She always wins as if it is meant to be!

She is independent, out going, down to earth and lives care free!

I love the way she never fails to bring out the best in me!

It is her you can always count upon.

For me she is always available from dusk till dawn.

I do have a distant plan.

At her wedding, I hope to be her best man!

I hope we remain in touch forever.

May this friendship end never!

I know this poem doesn't make sense in some parts. But all those parts were added for rhyming purpose only! :)

Result Analysis and more

2010-12-13T00:44:00.000+05:30

So, my grades are out! Yes, I did pass in every course! Woot! :D

I scored a fair enough SGPA of 7.6! With the highest being 9.8, I know it seems very less. But honestly speaking, I am happy with it. Considering the fact that one year ago I had scored a CGPA of 4.0 in my first semester at BITS, I have had a fairly decent performance here. I am glad that I could overcome my fears and that I did not let 'History' repeat itself! :)

Reflecting on my performance, I know one thing for sure. I could have performed MUCH better! My end semester exams surely did let me down. I was too tensed due to obvious reasons and in the end it surely got better of me. :|
But, it's fine. There is always the next time. :)

I had planned on criticizing Communication Skills' course in this post as I somehow managed to score my lowest grade in that course. I really don't know how! Luck wasn't on my side too as I missed the higher grade by probably 1-2 marks. I still find it hard to accept the fact that it screwed up my SGPA! :/
But then, I must have faulted somewhere, to end up a low grade in it. :)

Enough of Result Analysis. Some other stuff now! My holidays have started long back. One-third of my holidays is over. And I haven't really done anything from my to-do-in-the-holidays list. I tried my hands at the Rubik's 3x3x3 cube and did finally manage to solve it! I have now solved it 4 times with my fastest time being 5 min. 45 secs.! :D
But, I still haven't got the algorithm of one important step. The times when I have completed the cube is when I have luckily somehow avoided that step! :P
I intend to learn it to soon! And yeah, this is the only worthwhile thing that I have done since my semester ended! :/
God, PLEASE help me!

The Ex-Bitsian Trip

2010-12-08T22:32:00.003+05:30

After much forcing by Gaurav, my ex-roommate, I finally did visit my ex-college, BITS Pilani(Too much of 'exes' happening here! I know! :P)! Well, this visit was planned much earlier. I was supposed to go during OASIS(The cultural festival of BITS. It goes on for 96 hours non-stop! Trust me, it totally rocks! :D). But sadly due to my life at IIIT, I couldn't make it! :/
But then time had taken its toll and I was beginning to miss that place and the friends that I had made there! They were missing me too! :)
So on Friday, 3rd December, after cancelling many trips, I at last boarded the bus for Pilani from ISBT. I was dreading the 6 hours journey as I feared getting bored. But it turned out to be the best journey ever! I slept soundly for 4 hours with just getting up in between to feed myself! The return trip too was exactly the same! :D

I reached there around 1 p.m.(The bus driver was pretty good! :P), much earlier than expected. As soon as I saw the not-so-prominent main gate of the campus, everything started coming back! I started remembering the times I had walked down those lanes! All those memories attached to this place and all those moments that I had lived here, started flashing in my head! :/
I started seeing recognizable faces(Yes, I was back at BITS! :D)! Soon, the feeling started to sink in. I started meeting my group one by one and it felt like it was just yesterday when I was with them. I felt overly jubilated(I can't explain the feeling!)! :D
Daring Budhs(Name of the Counter Strike clan that we had formed! :D) was once again reunited! :D
We went out to lunch in C'Not(It is supposed to be like Delhi's Connaught Place. But trust me, they are poles apart even though they share the same name! :P) It was great like old times when we used to go out and have dinner at someone's b'day. :)

After lunch, I went to a friend's room for lan-gaming. I, at first, was eager to try my hands on FIFA11. I had been hearing from a long time about its awesomeness and couldn't wait to play it! I lost terribly in my first match and I didn't have the courage to play it anymore. I knew I wouldn't win the match but I really didn't expect to lose so easily(I lost 0-4! :|)! But honestly speaking, there is a huge difference in '10 and '11 version. '11 is much more realistic. So that clearly explained my pathetic defeat. And also the fact that I had played FIFA10 since 6 months didn't help my cause either. So we switched over to FIFA10! And man, I still did have it in me(I won 3 and lost 1! :P)! :D
The evening was spent catching up. We had so much to share. I was mostly doing the listening part as each one of them was giving me so much news about everyone else! It was great fun pulling their legs! Most of my friends had a common question for me, which as a matter of fact, I found quite amusing! I obviously can't mention that here(A hint: Its related to facebook! :P)!

We had dinner at ANC(All Night Canteen). It had got a few new dishes which tasted superb! Gaurav payed through his ID-Card, which is perfectly the reason why ANC rocks(Pseudo credit card! :P)! I spent the night at his room only. They all had a exam due the next day. So while he studied for it, I watched 'Social Network'(It's really an awesome movie and Mark Zuckerberg is such a shrewd person! Man, he ditched his best friend! :/).
I went to ANC again, at 1.30 in the night! They all wanted a break and were feeling hungry again. :P
I can't even tell you how cold it was then. I was literally shivering at that time, inspite of wearing a jacket over a sweat-shirt! :/

Before dozing off to sleep, I saw Gaurav drinking 'Redbull'. He was planning a night-out as he hadn't studied anything! With me coming a day before the exam, this was bound to happen! I could have come on some other day, but he was fine with me coming that day. :)
Seeing the 'Redbull' made me realize something. Instead of 'Redbull', I had now started relying on 'Nimbooz' and 'Bingo' for my night-outs before the exams(I did one before the DC exam.)! Man! Christ! What has happened to me?! :/

By the time I got up, he had already left for his exam. I got up and watched latest episode of HIMYM on his laptop. He obviously had it(DC++ rocks! :D)! Soon he was back, and we got ready to go out and have lunch somewhere outside the campus. But before finally getting up to move, I did manage to play a few more games of FIFA10! :D

Just as I was about leave the campus, I saw someone passing by! I thanked God for this, as this was one of the reasons for my trip. I threw my bag to my friend and shouted her name. She looked back immediately and was utterly surprised to see me! The smile on her face, for me, said it all. :P
I went across the road to talk to her. We started catching up with each other. I told her that I wanted to get in contact with her earlier but her facebook profile was pretty inactive. She promised to get active there(Later the same day, I found out that she had visited facebook!). I asked her something which I had been dreading to ask since last year. The answer that I received couldn't have been any better. I was just what I was hoping to hear(I immediately did a 'Yes yes' thing in my mind and thanked God again). She said something else too which send my mind in a tizzy! :P
We exchanged phone numbers and promised to remain in touch after the hiatus. I would definitely. I just hope that she does too! :)
So then, I could finally say that my trip to BITS was successful. My friends said that I was blushing after talking to her. I don't think so! I was not! Or maybe, I was, just a little bit! I hate the fact that my face gives it away all time! :)

Yet another LONG post. I know! :/
Please bear with me! :P
Result Analysis is next. :)

1st sem over! :D

2010-12-07T11:47:00.003+05:30

It has been quite a time since I actually sat down to blog. Life has been so fast paced that I haven't really found the time to write anything worthwhile except for a few poems. And with me not keeping well these last three days, it has got delayed a bit further! :/

So, my 1st semester just got over and I am finally free! Wuhoo!(I can't explain the feeling!) College was pretty hectic these last 2 months but I must say it was fun! I have so much to write that I really can't decide on what to post and what not(Please bear with me, if the post is too long! :/). I will basically sum up my experience in each course. :)

Introduction to Programming(IP) was a pretty good course. I am happy that I was taught Python and not C as in other colleges(One of the many reasons why I love my college)! As my Semester Project, I had made an 'Android App' along with Apoorv. We got full marks as our T.A. was quite surprised to see it. It was different from the conventional projects that others had made. :P
We had earlier decided upon building a 'Bit-Torrent Client'. It was my idea as I wanted to do something new, innovative and challenging as my project, something that would leave others' jaws dropped on seeing it! :D
But sadly, we soon realized that this wasn't possible in all that little time that was left for submission. It's end semester exam went the best among all the courses for apparently no reason at all! But I am glad that it happened! :)

Systems Management(SM) was probably the most informative course! This course added so much to my knowledge(Another reason for why I love my college.)! It was so flexible that 30% of its marks lied with us. 10% was for the Individual Innovative Assignment. For that I supposedly compared different anti-viruses. I am so pissed off with myself as I couldn't think of a better topic at that time! I ended up copying the data from the net as this topic didn't interest me at all! Group project accounted for 20%. For that I had chosen 'Tools for creating a website' along with my partners. I actually did work a lot for this project! I stayed up in the college till 10 p.m. for a complete week(More than 12 hours in college! :/)! I learnt Joomla and Wordpress due to it(I am not including Google sites as it is no-brainer! :P)! Its End Sem Practical made me spend the night at college! Well, getting a perfect score in IP's end semester project was also another reason! :P
We had to pick up chits for the exam and I got to do my own project. I went completely bonkers on seeing that. But later a bit disappointed as the night that I had spent in college turned out to be complete waste! :P
I messed up it's shell scripting lab exam which really pissed me off as I studied really hard for it! :|
And I fear this could be the reason for getting a lower grade! On the whole, I performed the best in this course and I would have my best grade in it! :D

Digital Circuits(DC) was the most interesting course! We got to work on FPGA boards(If you don't know what they are, google it for yourself! :P)! We got hands-on experience on programming circuits! :D
I built a 4-bit RAM! I know it sounds such a big thing. But trust me, it is not! :)
But to tell you what, the labs actually were a big headache as we had to prepare for something which we weren't taught up till then! I somehow managed to get through it with my 'irritating' lab partner! :P
To sum it up, it was a great course. I am glad they had included it in our syllabus! :)

Discrete Mathematics(DM) is perhaps the most boring thing that I have ever got the chance to learn. I found the course extremely impractical! I swear to God there have been many times when I have fallen asleep while copying from the slides, in this class! :P
I hated this course as it made no sense to me at all. I really could not understand why were we being taught this course as I couldn't see it's use in the future! I am just happy that it is over! :D

Communication Skills(CS) : The best course in the first semester! With only this being taught on that day of the week, Friday was technically a day off for me! It was a complete stress buster and I wish they would include such courses in every semester. Presentations, Group Discussions, Extempore(Although we didn't have that. But still, it was planned initially! :P), Dumb Charades, this course had it all! :D

I know this post is TOO late! My grades came out yesterday! And I should have criticized CS in my post! But I guess, I will leave that for a later post. :P
I still have yet to write about my trip to BITS Pilani! Result Analysis would be covered in the one after that! :D

It has been a while

2010-11-14T01:45:00.004+05:30

A poem again! But this time I have no effort in it all. :/

It has been written by a really good friend of mine who doesn't own a blog and thinks that such kind of lines don't suit her. Thus she wishes to remain anonymous for privacy concerns! :P

It has been a while

It has been a while since I wanted to live.
It has been a while since I enjoyed.
It has been a while since I laughed.
It has been a while.

It has been a while since I cried.
It has been a while since I desired someone.
It has been a while since I felt something.
It has been a while.

It has been a while since I expressed.
It has been a while since I reacted.
It has been a while since loved.
It has been a while...

If Only

2010-11-07T00:27:00.003+05:30

Another poem! But this time, it's not written by me entirely. Actually I would account for just 25% of it. The credit for the rest goes to Nikita! :)

This was written during our I.P. lecture as our lecturer makes even programming boring! :/

We are trying to make a story out of it. It's actually more of a free verse! But at the moment, it's incomplete as the climax is yet to come! :P
It has only been uploaded on special request! :D

If Only

If Only I could turn back in time,
To meet my partner in crime!
Who used to drink lime,
While the bells used to chime.

I miss her a lot.
Guys used to find her hot!
I remember the time we fought,
Before sleeping together on the cot.

We went to that faraway place.
Where I kept on staring at her face,
Which is full of grace.
But then suddenly, she wanted her own space! :(

To be continued...

One Dreaded Night

2010-10-28T00:49:00.004+05:30

My first attempt at writing a non-depressing poem! :P

One Dreaded Night

I could see a ray of light,
Something down the road did surely glitter.
It was a dark and gloomy night,
And I found myself in a place full of litter.

Mustering up all my courage,
I started to approach that glowing place.
All of a sudden, the wind blew full of rage,
And I fell flat down on my face.

I started walking again after getting up from the fall,
Feeling terrified as that place approached near.
Somebody had planned it all,
I was meant to be there.

There was a gun shot heard,
And I saw myself fall.
The thing that I had most feared,
Had taken no time at all.

Visualizing myself to be soon dead,
I started to scream.
I rolled over and fell down from the bed,
Realizing that this was just a dream.

Well, I had earlier wanted to name it "One Nighty Dream". But that would have given away the suspense in the beginning itself! :P

Regrets

2010-10-07T22:15:00.003+05:30

Another short, sad, depressing poem! I am sorry but I can't help it! :P

Regrets

The memories of the mistakes of my past,
never really fade.
Why do they take the limelight,
While my present is in the shade.

The guilt keeps me occupied,
Taking up my entire time.
Haunting me every moment,
As if I had committed a crime.

My future kept me distraught,
As my mind was full of utter confusion.
But after a bit of research and thought,
I did finally come to a conclusion.

"Never regret your past. Rather embrace it as the teacher it is. You can only optimise your life, never solve it." :)

Of Karaoke Party and Songs

2010-10-02T18:27:00.000+05:30

We recently had a Karaoke Party in our college. It was held just before the CWG break as we were parting for some time. It started off on a bad note as the the mike system not working. But in the end we sure had a lot of fun dancing to the songs! :D

I actually had more fun planning for the party than during it. The way I, Kshitiz and Kirti were finalizing the songs, it was seeming as if we would end up singing all the songs! :P

We were so excited for the party that we couldn't help but sing in DM's tutorial itself! We had decided to start off the party by singing 'Shirdi Wale Sai Baba' from the movie 'Amar Akbar Anthony' which was Kirti's idea. And that was exactly what we did. We were highly disappointed as we couldn't sing Atif's 'Gulaabi Aankhein'. But we did make up for it by singing it the next day! :P

We are all talking about the addiction to songs these days, in college. So here are the songs stuck in my head these days.:

1. The catalyst by Linkin Park

2. Love the way you lie by Eminem feat. Rihanna

3. Tujhe bhula diya of Anjaana Anjaani

4. Cry cry of Jhootha Hi Sahi

And yeah, Communication Skills's class is by far the best class in the 1st semester. Be it the 'Dumb Charades' that we played or the 'Formal Presentations' that we did, each class turns out to be quite fun. In the last class, we were taught how to conduct ourselves during a 'Group Discussion'. I still do have a hearty laugh on that 'Ek chutki sindoor' joke and that 'My man' one that we cracked that day! :D

College does seem to be good. And I sure am enjoying myself! :)

(Actually just the last week. And I am not including the meeting we had with the Director! :|)

And lastly, my laptop's charger hasn't working for the past few days. Without it, it actually seems as if life has come to standstill! With nothing else to do, I have been literally been forced to watch television to pass my time! :|

What's been going on!

2010-09-26T01:33:00.003+05:30

Life has been going on pretty OK at that moment. I wouldn't say that I am fed up of it. But neither would I say that I am happy with the way it is. It has been 2 months since my new college started and I still haven't got accustomed to it as of yet! I really feel that IIIT Delhi is 'sucking' the life out of me. There is SO much to do here. At present I just need a well-needed (Not well-deserved. :P) break! Thank God, the Commonwealth Games are just about here! :D

My 'Mid semester' exams just got over. And the results are almost out. I scored about average marks. So obviously I am highly disappointed with my performance. But it's much better when compared to my performance at BITS! :P

Even after the exams, I found myself so neck-deep in work that I literally meant 'Wake me up when September ends'! :P

Just before my b'day, I got a hair cut which was surely past its due date! I got it cut short because someone prefers (Or rather preferred. I am not sure about it presently.) it that way! ;)

20th September. My birthday! :D

Started off with a string of calls at midnight! Family members wished me in the morning. They don't stay up late! My cute sisters called from Dubai and promised to get me a chocolate cake when they would come to India! :) <3

Apoorv was as usual late for college. Even that day! :P

He along with Shanoo gifted me a book which I have been told to read as soon as possible! They would surely kill me if I don't! :P

The day had initially been planned to be a boring one as I had a paper scheduled in the evening. But then I got a mail stating its cancellation. That indeed was the best gift possible. It sure did kick off a few spontaneous plans.

I officially bunked my first class in my new college (I know! That's the way it is here! :|).

I spent my time in the college canteen with Nikita and Shreyasi. We chatted for about 2 hours. Each one of us had so many things to say. We selected the 'topics' at first and then spoke turn by turn on them. From now on, we have decided to hold such a meeting once every week to keep ourselves updated about 'What has been going on'! :P

After that I went to C.P. to meet the 'IGITians', Medha and Saloni. Now Medha is long-lost friend of mine with whom I just got back in touch a few months back. And Saloni is someone I know from XI class. I had not met either of them since years. In Saloni's case, 1.5 whereas in Medha's case, it was 10! :D

They both met each other on the 1st day of their college. That really proves what I feel, "The World is too small a place."! :)

Although Saloni did keep on saying how much she had changed, I honestly found her the same since I last met her. Medha had changed a bit. She had grown a bit taller and had longer hair. Well people do change a bit in 10 years, don't they!? :P

We went to McDonald's in C.P. for my treat and lot of fun catching up with one other. They gifted me a 'priceless' Liverpool key chain along with a card which had 'Shin Chan' drawn on it! :D

Next, I met Chirag at Rajouri Garden. He finally did introduce me to his girlfriend, Kritika. After the initial awkwardness, we did get talking. But I really don't think I made a good first impression! :| Sorry, Chirag! :P

"All is well that ends well" certainly didn't apply in my case. By the time I reached home, my head was aching severely. And on checking, I found out that I had 101 fever. :|

A terrible end to an awesome day! :(

Around 125 people wished me that day including wishes on Facebook! Thanks to all of you. I love you all. Muahh! God bless you! :P :)

My experience of leading a lab session

2010-09-13T22:01:00.003+05:30

As a part of my 'Systems Management' course at, I had to lead a lab session which had a small part in the final evaluation. My peers had to rate me on how well I performed. :P

I turned up for the training along with my lab partner on 14th Aug 2010. I was actually late for it because the previous day we had our Freshers Party and that had left me completely tired. One of our T.A.'s took our training that day. And I must say he was pretty well prepared for it. He knew almost all the questions that I asked him. We were actually present in the lab for 4 hours barring a 5 mins break in between. And our training wasn't even complete then. We only managed to cover the Windows part. The Linux part was yet to be covered. At the end of the training there was one thing of which I was sure of, 'A huge task lay ahead of me!'.

I sat down with my partner on Monday and divided the sub-topics between us. We took alternative topics so that none of us would be speaking for a longer time. We researched a bit 'Wikipedia' and noted down the things that we felt important and should be told to the class. We decided that while one of us would be explaining the topic to the class, the other would be going personally to everyone, asking them their doubts and clarifying if any. So that no one feels left out and everyone is happy with our performance. :P
The main problem that we faced was how to finish a lab session in 1.5 hrs when the training itself took 4 hours. The T.A. had told us that he would be teaching Linux to the class in the last 0.5 hr.

The day eventually came. And I can't even tell you how nervous I was before it. I had butterflies in my stomach and my face completely reflected the state of my mind at that time. The group 2 people can actually vouch for this! But somehow I suppose, I did manage it. ;)

I started off with proceedings and my partner took on from me really well. It didn't go as planned. Well now I have actually started to believe that nothing in life goes according to plan! But it still went pretty well, I suppose. :P
We started off as we had decided. The process was quite smooth except for a few hiccups! We did face a few problems, but we dealt with them with ease. The group 2 people were really helpful. They weren't asking much tricky questions. Well, I guess that was due to the fact that their turn was yet to come. But on the whole, they were quite understanding and sympathetic with me! :P
And before I knew it, we were over with it! :D

They basically had 2 complaints from us. Firstly that we weren't able to finish the lab before 4 p.m.! And secondly that this was the most boring lab session! The first one I accept was in our hands. But the second wasn't! :P

At the end of the session, I actually felt that I was a bit less prepared. I couldn't answer a few questions that my friends asked. I had to eventually say that I didn't know that and I would have to look that up. And I didn't at all like saying that. :|

To conclude, I would like to say that leading the lab session was good experience. You don't really get to step into your teacher's shoes everyday. I thoroughly enjoyed the leading part, although not the training and the part before it! :P
But it was nevertheless a good experience. Something which I would surely like to experience again! :)

My experience at the Indian Passport Office

2010-08-30T22:16:00.006+05:30

My passport expired on 19.09.2009, i.e. just before I turned 18. But it's renewal kept getting delayed mainly due to two reasons. Firstly because I wasn't in Delhi for most of the past 1 year and my parents were adamant on me getting it done! Secondly there wasn't any urge to get it done as I had no near future plans of traveling abroad! Hence the prolonged delay.

So after my IIIT result, when I supposedly had nothing to do, my parents forced me to get it done even though the 2nd reason still held! So I downloaded the form, took my time to fill it, attached the required the documents and was ready for submission.

On 09.07.2010, after a week full of delays from my side, I finally went to the Passport Office District Collection Centre in Pitampura. I actually had to walk 1.5 kms to get there because of a wrong turn that I had taken. And to my dismay, my Passport wasn't eligible there. This Centre only looked into the passports which were more than 5 years old. Mine clearly wasn't. Now where was this mentioned on their website? So, I was told that my query for renewal would only be considered at the Head Office! Moreover, the Centre required 2 documents for every proof when it was clearly mentioned on the website that only 1 is required!

Then on Monday, 13.07.2010, I took a bus and went too the Indian Passport Head Office located at Bhikaji Cama Place near the The Hyatt Regency Hotel. The no. of people present there took me by surprise. 600 people applying for the passport per day = 18,000 people in 1 month = 6570000 passports issued in a year! It seemed as if everyone is applying for a passport. This actually got me into believing that every Indian wants to go abroad once in their lifetime! So the token no. that I got on my entrance was 336 and no. going on at that time was 60. There were 10 counters for the collection of forms. I was hoping that my turn would come in another 1.5 hours. But I soon realized that I was in for some big waiting! Out of 10 counters present, 4 were reserved. Out of the remaining 6, 2 weren't working! Somebody, who had come on the previous day too, told me that these counters weren't this slow yesterday! So why that day? Because that day I had gone to the Passport Office! After waiting for 5 hours, at last one of the counters flashed my number. And before I could realize, I was over with it! The best part was waiting for 5 hours for a 5 min job! :|

Loneliness (An unfinshed poem)

2010-08-22T23:19:00.006+05:30

Hey everyone!
I am back with my 2nd blog post. It's an incomplete poem titled 'Loneliness' dated 02.06.2009. The note on which it has been left does not make sense. I can't continue it further as I don't remember what was my mindset at that time. I am thinking of writing the next paragraph on 'hope', 'faith' , as I want to end it on a positive note. If you have anything else in your mind, please blurt it out. Your suggestions are most welcomed! :)

Loneliness

Standing alone in the room, I try to look outside;
Searching for someone in whom I can confide.
Stretching my hands out, begging for some company;
Remembering all the happy times, now a distant memory.
Lying down alone, tired and cold;
With nothing and no one to hold.

Trying to get up, looking for reassurance;
Feeling worn out and frustrated, happiness seemed a huge distance.
Realizing that it was all my mistake;
Eyes heavy with sleep, but mind wide awake.
I had lost everything that I had;
But still some part of me felt happy and glad.

My first blog post

2010-08-22T00:32:00.008+05:30

The 'Wait' finally ends! At last, I get down to business and start a blog of mine. And here I am with my first blog post! I have wanted to blog from such a long time. And it somehow kept on being delayed. But I am happy I somehow did manage to start it!

I am not setting any particular duration between 2 blog posts. I will blog whenever I find time and whenever I feel like doing the same. But I assure at least 1 blog post per week!

I won't associate my blog with any particular genre. My blog posts could vary from self-composed poems, short stories to incidents from my past and my present to News Headlines that have struck me to anything that catches my fancy. They could be both relevant and irrelevant, interesting and uninteresting, expected and unexpected. Whatever goes on in my head, I would try to blog most of it with obviously a few exceptions here and there!

If you have come so far and read so long, I request you to please become a follower of my blog! I am sure I won't disappoint you! :)